Dull the pain….methadone mile

If you take a walk a few blocks from my house in Boston you will run into the Methadone Mile. It’s a stretch of Mass Ave that houses a methadone clinic and a shelter. Every day the people line up to receive their prescription medication and then stumble around the neighborhood, most looking for something harder than the methadone. Many are using heroin as well. You will find used needles and other paraphernalia all over.

My church often goes up to provide these people with basic needs. We’ve heard their stories and they are heartbreaking, you’ve got old and young, parents and teens out there. Almost all started off with an injury of some sort and were prescribed an opioid. Soon the dosage isn’t enough and they turn to fentanyl or heroin.  Both killers.  The cost of the prescriptions can be outrageous for anyone without or in some cases, even with insurance.  For the folks on Methadone Mile, many times this is part of an agreed to plan to get sober so the cost is less.

There are stories of friends lost and you see overdosing daily. They are in pain and looking for relief.  I always wonder at what point the pain is so much that you shoot up in the street as kids in the backseat of cars passing by looking on.  Just today at our neighborhood park, a young lady was laying in the toddler area with a needle sticking out her arm.  My son was seconds from running in there.  The dignity they once had was lost long ago. The sense of belonging to the community rather than just existing in it is gone too.  These people aren’t just in physical pain but mental pain as well.  They cannot escape their own minds.  They relive the things they’ve done and not done.  They have memories of what life was like long before drugs took over.  That is sometimes an unbearable level of pain. The only thing that matters is getting rid of the pain. My mom was prescribed methadone after a bad accident and I’m confident it aided in her death. She was depressed, had severe anxiety and terrible physical pain.   They gave her several prescriptions and most of them failed her.  She tried it all, just as I did.

The drug has no enemies, sees no color or age. Doesn’t care if you have grandkids or a dog waiting at home. If it wants you, it gets what it wants.

I’ve often considered going to the doctor for my own back pain but I’ve seen too much. I saw what it did to my mom and to others I loved.  Instead, I’ve used every single over the counter pill, heat pads, rubs and recommended product I could find. I went to the chiropractor and that helped more than most other things.   Some worked for a day or two. Some an hour or so. Some not at all. I can’t imagine the amount of money I’ve spent. After careful research and being desperate for relief, I tried Hemp (cbd) Oil. The first couple of brands worked fairly well. Took the edge off but the ache was always right there, waiting.   I heard about a different brand and tried it. I started on Aug 10th.

My results?  I can tell you today I have an anxiety level of 1.  Depression 0.  Pain hovering around a 2.  I cannot discuss that further here because it would sound like I am making a medical claim for a supplement.  That is a no-no.   Why?  Pharma and the government have existing patents from proprietary hybrid strains of cannabis, to clean and efficient growing systems, software-based analytics and monitoring, and packaging and distribution infrastructure. I get it.  Business is money and money is serious.   How serious is it?  See the patents and articles below.

Patents are held by both the US and GW Pharma:

US Patent on Cannabinoids as antioxidants and neuroprotectants

GW Pharma – List of patents

Pharma’s Single Compound CBD

Pharma Wars


Products will be developed rapidly I assume.   Whether it will be in the form of a new prescription or not, I don’t know.  I hate to see that something that’s been around since the beginning of time and that the US has had a patent on since the early 1900’s is now being fought over in the pharma and government arenas.  Nothing good can come of that.  Just ask those on Methadone Mile.

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Size matters, especially when it comes to hemp oil!


My journey into CBD began because of years of back pain, anxiety, and mild depression. When I got pregnant in 2013 I stopped taking Prozac and Ativan. In 2016 I was determined to find something more natural to help. CBD kept coming across my newsfeed and I began looking into various companies. I chose one out of Vermont and ordered. I did feel slightly more relaxed but the pain was still persistent.  I’d read plenty of stories about other autism parents using CBD / Hemp for their children.  People using it to control seizure activity and a host of other ailments.  Of course, everyone is different and everyone reacts to products differently.  But what if it was the quality of the oil that really made the difference?  It was naive of me to think all oils were created using the same standards and methods.

Before we go further, let’s understand the distinction between marijuana (cannabis) CBD and Hemp.

CBD is extracted and separated from specific varieties of cannabis, also known as hemp. Chemically, CBD is one of 85 chemical substances known as cannabinoids, which are all found in the cannabis plant. CBD is the second most abundant compound in hemp, typically representing up to 40% of its extracts.

CBD interacts with cells within our bodies by activating the cannabinoid receptors. These receptors are responsible for transmitting signals within our bodies, causing different physiological effects.

The CBD market has branded itself as the next miracle in healing. While that statement is fairly accurate and quality CBD can improve overall health, the demand for it has brought out the greed and flooded the market.

One whistleblower from Dixie Botanicals blasted her former company with this statement:

“These formulations start with a crude and dirty hemp paste contaminated with microbial life (I have seen this and these organisms decompose in the paste. The paste perhaps even contains residual solvents and other toxins as the extraction is done in China) made using a process that actually renders it unfit for human consumption”

Whether her statement was true or not, the accusation is very concerning. I personally know many people who’ve recommended Dixie Botanical oil.

In 2017 a friend started independently testing oils. Some of them were absolutely shocking. No CBD at all! None. That was mind blowing. It proved to me that many companies are using the boom of CBD to make money, period. No concern for the health of you or your child.  If I know one thing it’s that parents want the best for their kids, especially special needs children. Corporations and store clerks aren’t familiar with your needs or your circumstances.

I began to look further myself and info wasn’t hard to find. The FDA has sent warning letters in 2015 and 2016. Here they are 2015, 2016. Some fairly well know companies are on that list.  Of course, pharma also wants in on the action and has developed a seizure medication that is CBD based. See more here: gw pharmaceuticals

After spending months reading about various brands, consumer complaints, calling companies, talking to friends online and watching videos, I decided that unless the maker was able to be 100% transparent with me, I couldn’t purchase the oil.  Just today a friend made an inquiry of a very well known oil’s content.  Her question:   “In your 3600 mg CBD oil, there are 3% cannabinoids?”  The reply:  “3600mg in our 3600mg CBD refers to the total amount you get from one bottle.  Serving is 15mg per 0.5mL which equates to 30mg per 1mL.  The bottle has 120mL of CBD oil.  120mL x 30mg per mL is 3600mg for the entire bottle.” She repeated the question and was told this:  “Percentage is irrelevant in CBD products unless you are using a pure extract. The higher concentrated extract would contain more CBD by weight.  It still wouldn’t be fair to say that higher is better because it comes down to the actual profile of the oil.”   I read that and still don’t know the answer to her question.

Everyone has their own set of standards.   Whichever brand you choose, be sure you ask questions!  For me, knowing that a former organic farmer and scientist created the brand I am using makes a big difference.  Being able to look up and watch multiple videos of him explaining the process and the product is invaluable.  Read more below.


I am now using/recommending PMB Hemp Oil. I have listened to the creator Dr. Chris Shade explain the process and product. I’ve talked to sellers who believe in community and communication amongst parents in need of solutions. I believe being able to reach out to a community of people helps us stay better informed.

Supporting each other rather than a business we have no connection to makes sense. I think about all the times I’ve recommended a product and don’t know if the person I told tried it or had success with it. This system joins us together to watch the success, the transformation and allows us to educate each other.

In an independent third party test against cannabinoid uptake, our hemp oil was absorbed in the blood in amounts three times as great at half the dose of the leading pharma brand. In fact, phospholipid therapy, using both injectable forms and oral forms, has a long and solid clinical history.

Our liposomes bring the power of intravenous therapy into convenient oral delivery.  Unlike other liposomes on the market that use low grades of phospholipids, which breakdown and do not deliver compounds effectively, our high-phosphatidylcholine phospholipid mixes are smaller, more stable, and tightly distributed, single-layer spheres. Our vesicles are small enough to begin absorption as soon as they hit your mouth; it’s lightning fast!

The science behind why PrimeMyBody’s Hemp Extract is proving to be so effective is based on the Human Endocannabinoid System. This elaborate network is part of our immune system and when it is activated by taking phyto cannabinoid diols, humans (and animals) have better ability to fight, resist, and assist in repairing the mind and body.

The endocannabinoid system also includes the “cannabinoid receptors” or CB receptors that they bind to. There are two major types of cannabinoid receptors in our bodies: CB1 and CB2. Activation of the extracellular portion of these receptors causes conformational change and initiates intracellular biochemical reactions. The vast number of cannabinoid receptors and their prevalence throughout the body suggests a multitude of promising therapeutic targets.

CB1 and CB2 (1)
If you are interested in learning more, you can reach me here: Canna_Connection

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